So I came back to blogging about 10 days ago. It was at a time where I felt like my motivation to do anything really fell at an all time low. Maybe it was just the exhaustion from the move and renovation kicking in. Add work and just life in general into the mix and I just didn’t have the energy to do anything any more.
I don’t remember why, but I opened up my blog posts from a a year and half ago and I started reading and I just thought – I want to be that girl again. I was pushing myself everyday to be better and I had felt so good. Stupidly enough, I let life get in the way and one week off turned to two and so on. It was so easy to fall back into a rut and I am so upset when I think about it now. All that effort and work just wasted.
Part of me thinks I stopped trying to be better because I stopped blogging. It sounds silly, but actually writing down my progress in a such a public way, not only motivated me to keep going, but helped me keep track of myself. My failure before was also focusing too much on the fitness aspect of being healthy. But being healthy is so much more than just working out.
Being healthy to me means finding that balance between work and life. It means not letting the stress from my 9am-5pm job carry over and continue to wear me down at 9pm. It means opening up my fridge and putting together a home cooked meal instead of opening GrubHub or Seamless. It means making the effort to actually go outside and breathe in the fresh air, if only for a couple of minutes to clear my head. It means putting in the effort to be more physically active than I was the day before. It means finding the time to balance being a wife and a friend and a daughter. But most importantly, it means finding time for me to just be me.
Once I realized what healthy actually meant to be, I was able to make minor changes over the course of the following 10 days that have made me much happier than I was just 2 short weeks ago.
First of all, I started waking up 30 minutes earlier in the morning. Those extra 30 minutes in the morning give me the time to gather my thoughts and prepare for the day ahead. By doing so, I am able to just breathe. I am able to have 30 extra minutes to just myself. And I have noticed that my days are that much more bearable when I have given myself that extra time. Even better, the weather has still been hanging on the warmer side, and I have been able to enjoy a cup of coffee on my terrace watching the sun come up. There is absolutely no better way to start the day and I only wish I had started sooner.
At work, I have had to travel to different locations within the city, this month in particular. In the past, I would have just jumped on the nearest train to get me as close to where I needed to go. For these last 10 days though I have chosen to walk whenever it was feasible. I mean, if the subway was going to take me 30 minutes anyway, why not just do the 45 minute walk? All of a sudden getting those 10,000 steps a day doesn’t seem like a challenge at all…
After work I change and go right into cooking. And you know what? It doesn’t even feel like a chore. I blast some music (lately I can’t listen to anything but the Hamilton soundtrack on repeat) and I just cook. This part of my day has proven to be therapeutic. I find myself more at ease and I can just feel my anxiety and the stress from the day just being lifted.
While it may not be much, I was able to go to the gym this week too. I only went once but it was the first time in about a year so I’ll count that as a win. I had planned to go over the weekend as well but we ended up going on beautiful hike instead. I will always choose the outdoors over a gym. Sorry, but that’s just me.
Going forward, I want to continue my progress to a healthier lifestyle by:
- Continuing to cook more meals
- Making more of an effort to be outdoors
- Continue waking up 30 minutes earlier during the work week
- Finding time once or twice a week to go to the gym in the evenings
- Putting my husband and his needs first too – while I may be talking about finding a healthier lifestyle for me, my husband is still part of my life and I need to keep in mind his needs and wants (sometimes) during this process too
- Thinking more about my long term goals and how I want to accomplish them
- Not letting the little shit get me down or ruin my day
So am I alone out there or does this ring a bell with anyone else as well? I want to know, what does healthy mean to you?